Monday, March 3, 2014


Today, I spent a lot of time thinking about expectations. When is it okay to expect something from someone? When is it not okay? I think that expectations themselves are not bad, but when those expectations turn into entitlement, then things begin to twist out of proportion. Sometimes, I expect people that I know, friends or family, to act a certain way. Sometimes, I expect specific people to be perfect, and when they are not perfect, I become oddly frustrated. Why is this? I am not perfect. Why do I expect others to be? It's a part of my sinful, unforgiving heart, I suppose. I just hope that realizing this flaw within me, this tendency to expect perfection from others and not from myself, I will be able to, through Christ, conquer it. He's perfect. He will never sin or let me down. He has never done wrong. And yet He forgives me despite my imperfection. How much more should I forgive others? How much more do I need my friends to forgive me? 

And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you. - Ephesians 4:32

Monday, February 24, 2014

Pro-Life Book Haul!

A new video about some of my favorite, pro-life books. Check it out! 

For those of you who have been following me since the beginning, I just wanted to let you all know that my vlogging channel is currently out of commission for various reasons. It will become my personal channel, and I hope to post some fun videos there in the summer... but until then, I will only be posting on my main channel. 

Keep on dreaming!

Angela :) 

Friday, February 7, 2014

Thoughts on "Passion and Purity" by Elisabeth Elliot

“I was wishing that my wishes were what God wished, and if my wishes were not what God wished, I wished that I could wish that my wishes would go away, but the wishes were still there.” – Elisabeth Elliot, Passion and Purity
This past week, I was privileged to read Passion and Purity, written by Elisabeth Elliot. In truth, I wasn't all that excited to read this book. My friend, Lydia, and I wanted to read and study a book together, and we mutually chose this one, so I borrowed it from my pastor's family. I expected the book to be exclusively about sexual purity, and while that is an important read, it wasn't the type of book I was looking for.

To my surprise and delight, this book dealt with a wide variety of topics--many of which I really, truly struggled with--all relating to some form of... you guessed it, passion and purity. Elisabeth Elliot did a wonderful job, touching on questions I have been asking in my mind for weeks and months. In short, I loved the book. To reflect upon it, I would like to make a list of what stood out to me the most. Please feel free to share your thoughts in the comment section below.

1. Before searching for the "love of your life," give yourself to God... first. You know what I realized recently? The Lord has given every girl, and boy, a set amount of years where we are single. For me, I always considered those years to be fun and free, but I think we as Christians are called to take it a step further then that. Take those years to fully serve Him. Nurture an ever closer relationship with Jesus Christ, your Lord and Savior.

I'm not saying that you can lower God in your list of "important things" in your life once you're in a relationship. Absolutely not. I'm saying that now is the time to strengthen your faith so that when you are in a relationship, He will already be in every aspect of your life, and no boyfriend, fiance, or spouse will be able to raise above him. In other words, God ought to be #1 in your life before and after a relationship. At the same time, before such a thing occurs, use your single years to give yourself entirely to your Lord. 

2. When you meet your man, be patient and take things slowly. Imagine this, girls. You go through the first sixteen, seventeen, years of your life surrounded by boys who—let’s be real here—don’t impress. You know your close guy friend, your study partner, that kid in class, that other kid in youth group. Being single is easy. But what happens when you do meet that special someone?

Be patient. My mom always reminds me that “the flower should never chase the bee,” or in other words, you should not be chasing any boy. Ever. It’s a part of our duty as girls and women. What hit me the most, though, was Elisabeth Elliot’s definition of chasing. She listed off several examples: from calling to see how his prayer life is going to sending an email… sound familiar? In my mind, whenever I had done these things and more, I was just being a good friend. But if I was interested in being more than friends, is that really what I was doing?

It’s something to think about, at least.

Also, patience doesn’t just mean “don’t chase him.” It has another side too. Elisabeth waited five whole years for her first husband, Jim Elliot. Five years. During that time, they sent a few letters, met up a handful of times… I’m not saying that you should run around waiting for boys or anything like that. I just think we should stop and consider what true patience is. She waited five years, and it was worth it in the end.

3. No man that you ever meet will be perfect.  This hit home the most for me. Even though I am full of flaws and I make thousands of mistakes every single day, for some reason I expect the man to be perfect. Jim Elliot, the amazing missionary, the godly man that Elisabeth waited for, even he isn’t perfect. He slipped up during his senior year in college, even coming to the point where he kissed a few girls that he “didn’t care about.” I guess I was just reflecting on myself and how I would have reacted, as Elisabeth, in the situation. It hurt her, and she let him know that. But when he was truly repentant, she forgave him.

I think this needs to be taken with a grain of salt. Previous to marriage, if a man cheats on you, etc. sometimes you need to cut off the unhealthy relationship, or at least step back and think about things. I'm talking about small things, small and even insignificant slip-ups that can easily be turned into a big deal. How forgiving am I? And taking it to the next level, how much do I love and trust someone that I can forgive them, knowing that I have wronged them much more?

4. The more you perceive God’s purpose in your life, the less terrible will the losses seem… This is a direct quote from the book. I simply could not think of a better way to write this myself. Over the years, countless people: friends, family, etc. have tried to encourage me, and other girls like myself, with words like, “God has a great plan for you” or “don’t worry, your love is out there” or even “there are a lot of fish in the sea.”

I don’t know about other girls, but I never found this encouraging. I don’t think we should pretend that we are all destined or even deserving of a husband. That’s not the right approach. I think we need to be focused on God, glorifying and serving Him, being ever thankful for all He chooses for my life, knowing that His plan is better than mine will ever be. More painful? Yes. More confusing? Possibly. But who am I to tell the Creator of the Universe what to do?

I have been blessed in my life. My hardships are very small, but to me they seem big. But for me, as long as I keep my eyes on Christ and perceive His purpose for my life, any hardship or loss is small indeed. ‘

For me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.

- Angela